Someone told me few years back that you definitely lose your identity as you moved to city ,for a while I think on that and didn’t conclude whether it is good for me or bad, because if I did some mistake no one knew to me so no matter of bothering about myself so on the one side I am happy where as on the other side no one will identify me on the road, in the shop, makes me to feel alone as I walking through the street of my home town so many hands will rise to wish me but here! Hence I felt bad.
As almost three years past in the city offcource I am happy, even I suffer some or other day for some silly\great reasons I should enjoy them now because I believe in the word there is no solution for past, we can’t go and repair it .morning early wake ups, picking up space less busses, reaching office late….returning by late night having some so called funs at somewhere!!! Then hit to bed.. routine continues with a bit changes on Saturday and Sunday ,when you come across something changes in between ,if you meet someone whom you like , when you fell some different experience s you really feel happy and they are walking with us for many days until some other things happen.
In Bangalore I have hardly 4-5 places where I can enjoy , where I can act as I like(offcource I do this everywhere),where I get more relaxed are my room, prasad/chetan’s room , some DB’s, PES college (which gives both extreme cases onside makes laugh some other time kills our patients).
happiness is not that much costly if we think that ambani is building 24 storey building as home and we might think I will be very happy if I am in that kind of home .But I am very happy and comfortable in my 7 by 8 room which is bit bigger than Roshan home’s bathroom as he told. The thing is how we feel the moment and how we utilize the surroundings.
I just want to clear one thing that happiness does never depends on the amount you spent ,how big it is, how rich it is , how beauty it is ,how rare it is ,how unique it is . Happiness is entirely a different concept which keeps on changing its angel based on person.
We, the team EGB have six members all are having different wavelength, came from different soils, am not here to explain neither their characters nor there greatness, I just like the way how we are enjoying our moments ,if I am true there is no big clash in our team so far and that is real true. any relation not only friendship it may be love, marriage….any relation will sustain only if there are some losers who want to quite the game of quarrel before it starts in fact in our team there are six members with that qualities and am really proud to be part of that.
We went to one girl’s house for get together along with dinner, Shubha our MS class mate with all EGB members and Sindhu with Deepa (D:\)we spent around 2 hrs(I left one hour before for my weekend party) there are two smiles for one word better if I put like this we laughed more then what we spoke! And that is the beauty of life and beauty of happiness where you forgot everything almost everything our girl/ boyfriends, work tension, home, whole world we forgot. We found happiness sometime when our world become small, obviously at that time our world is that 15 by 20 home and in that world only 9 members are alive. When you think like that and you start enjoying then there may not be no end until you tiered.
For me that day is very special, very very special because that day I went to 8 years back when we were in magadi we used to go to mysore for so called “paksha” since my grand ma has 6 children 3+3, so we have 10-11 group of children .we used to play so many games actually for those two days I eagerly awaited many weeks sometimes months also. As year passed …. Some misunderstandings, behavioral changes make all of us to split I lost almost all of them ….. All of them, But I am waiting from past 8 years the moment may repeat but it never. After my PU I think we lost connection, so from past 6-7 years I don’t have any close relatives in my life either may be my younger’s or elders ,only my friends take part in my life and replaced all my relatives until now . As I mentioned earlier I lost the game many times but they are not accepting my defeat also, so I came out of the game and event as well.
But the last night I got my days back, even before we had spent so many times in prasad’s/Chetan’s room, we played whole night….. but that is different as females enter into screen the picture will be different ,even we don’t know 1 rupees of their 100 Rs but we are acted more than any relation which lived for 20 years, that is the beauty of friendship and beauty of life. Some moments in life you can’t forget until your death like your first pet animal, first love, first kiss, first prize, first accident………….
To be continues…………
Jeevan MP
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